I'm hungry.

I want BREAD!

风水轮流转

就在十多年前
你，或甚至是你们
那时我还是个小孩
可是没有理由一个孩子，连是非黑白都没能分清楚时，他的感觉可以如此敏锐
察觉到你就是那么看贬她！
不要否认，事实就摆在眼前
你从小都被宠着，你妈为人怎样，大家心知肚明。
当初你说我冬菇头，样子一点也不美，
一副瞧不起人，自以为了不起的样子
没错，你确实聪明过人
可是：小时了了，大未必佳。
你的华语那么好，不用要我这个华语拿C+ 的人来教你吧？
当初的自尊心确确实实被你伤透
就连你妹妹，我不得不称她为‘是非精’
我从此下决心以后要好好奋斗
你的大马文凭确实名列前茅，可惜好的路不走，贪图一时快感选择错误
我确实有心灾乐祸之感
难道学校老师就没有叫你怎么去为未来铺条既安全又美好的路吗？
未来应该就是丝绸之路了
可是如今你前途茫茫，以前考得多好也没有用。
两个字 -- 活该！
林德荣说得没错，你真的太过高估自己，惹人讨厌。
学什么人在娱乐圈发展？
我不得不用这些词句去形容你，因为你确实配得上它们。
我也不觉得我应该道歉，这些天，我等了好久
真的别看我天天嘻嘻哈哈的，我还真会记仇，我更相信报应
我还真不想谈你全家，可是你们处处逼人
我也忍无可忍

你妈妈。
拜托，我们有给薪水的！
不是有钱大完，可是我有权利说，你没有尽责！
给了钱你，就是要你替我载送我妹妹
更何况只是载去补习，很难咩？！
很辛苦咩？
你赚到了咯！
你的人，大得闲啦！时间观念有烂到！
迟了点点就等一下咯，罗罗嗦嗦干什么？
我没有必要受你这些气。
你有着个责任奔波，因为当初是你自愿的。
累，是个借口。
你凭什么摇个电话来破口大骂？还是一大早！而且还是我！
加上与我无关。我不给面子你的话，老早已叫你闭嘴。
你的头脑是不是有问题的？
老人家给钱我，是因为我是家孙，是因为我成绩好，是因为他给得开心！
我一句也没问过老人家要钱！
你凭什么在老人家面前说他没有给钱奖励你的孩子？
更何况那已是陈年旧事。
我家开迷你派对，又关你啥事喔！
那是我跟我母亲那里的表姐妹举办的
你出么声？
你脸皮有没有再厚一点？
人家没有请你就静静回家吃饭啦！
没有请你又关你事？没有请你又有故事作？这样都要计较？
不见你孩子请吃东西的时候叫埋我们一家？
你吃了我们多少餐霸王饭吖？
我们有介意过没有！
我们三姐妹还要给你孩子问为什么唱k要你出钱！
老人家给钱你托尼照顾他们，好心就顾好来啦！
要不就天天带他们出去吃味精，要不就是一餐冷冰冰的晚餐！
你能吃而已，他们活了几十年了，就不能有顿好的吗？
你问心惭不惭愧？多煮一餐难道会死掉？
你这些所作所为，有没有再讽刺点吖！
理性点啦！几岁了喔！
我为晚辈也觉得你很错！
我戴着面具去对你，还真只是给老人家还有我父母面子而已。

本文立场纯粹发泄

Once in A Lifetime

 I dont know how am i suppose to start this post.
I'm having a combination of feelings.
But clear and simple, unlike before i left to China.
It was complicated and confused beforehand.
I actually wanted to share some thoughts before, during and after of my trip.
Hmm. Cut the story short.
The morning otw to the airport- 5am, i was thinking bout you.
The minute before we all enter the custom check,
mom hugged me, dad was touching my head for the first time!
I wanted to hug him but i can't. Or i will cry!
I see tears in their eyes and unwanted to let me go.
Me too! I wanted to cry so badly but i hold'em back.
I cried once after i check in and otw up at the escalator.
I looked back, and they're waving to me.
They can't see my tears.
In China, the first three weeks. It was real bad.
I were having some issues with my host family, i'm sick, i'm really down.
I had the worst Christmas and New Year ever.
I saw your text the next morning i woke up, it was snowing out there.
I received obituary news back home and wanted to go home so badly.
The other Malaysians brightened up my day on 2Jan and ... .
We went for shopping.
The first week of 2011, i was sick.
I had fever, cough, flu, sore throat and cirit birit for one whole week.
But after all, things went smooth.
Chinese New year, perhaps it's a very different one.
And i off for a 2days trip.
We travel to everywhere together and there're really lots of memories.
After the trip, i really feel a lot, learnt a lot, gained a lot.
Not only cultures, but peoples, attitudes, manners, and yea, TO LOVE MALAYSIA.
I lost 2relatives in 1shoot, and i can't really accept it at that moment.
And all in my mind was, what the heck is going on!
It really tested my determination upon completing the course.
Appreciation and gratitudes.
When i came back, all i wanted to do is love everybody more.
I am way too afraid to lost any of them esp my dad.
I used to feel kinda annoyed at my grandma last time, but now no more.
She's cute! She told me on phone, I'm waiting for you to come back! I make you bird nest tong sui!
Alot alot. She told me she's upset the night during my uncle's funeral when they call me.
And my popo, and aunts. They made me felt the family love.
Popo felt so bad when she heard of what happened to me.
Though just seconds of convo otp, but i meant a lot to me then.
All these took place at 2 funerals.
The night i reached home, 3am. Everyone were waiting for me, and all of us went for supper.
I feel some kind of loving that i never felt before.