Something tend to forget

Something intend to forget But it came back to my mind a night before last night A summary of my day when you were away. This might be the last one, maybe. My Monday started at 558am, a text from mate woke me up. First thing came to my mind, was that you? Got up and get my bag packed, looking at the books, I feel like 'oh no!' again, wanted to give up so badly As usual went to school clock in assembly. During assembly a question triggers me, why must we sing those songs? For what purpose? Lol After all, in the class was just so so. MUET was saddening, all of us including the teacher were so heavy hearted The school change our teacher again which making us getting annoyed, only our class Every subject, non-stop adjusting ourselves to new teachers within months. Troubling us, and we don't see the point there. After that was 2hours of chemistry. Sucks. My mind gone wandered. Idk whattheheck the man was talking about. Study on my own. Recess I went down, finally on this week. I didn't take any food this morning, that's why. Oh it was then Pearly's lesson. I didn't follow, busying over my interview stuffs puzzling the questions. Friend took my camera to snap on those who're sleeping. And one photo, I zoomed in to see what myself doing back there Guess what, before I get to look at myself, I saw saliva coming out from the fellow's mouth! I burst out laughing VERY LOUDLY in a sudden and everyone was like, what's wrong?! This shocking find out is really classic. Then after was bio, i fall asleep. A video was captured on another mate fishing for minutes! No doubt, I got snapped too. Luckily I slept nicely. Hahaha ! After school I had magazine new members intake interview, So far so good. Thanks to the committe who helped me. Then we had last minute committee meeting, Discussed a lot, so many things that we are making a change this year Hopefully everything goes well according to as what we've planned. Hopefully our teacher advisor would just approve everything we've discussed today' 430pm I got home like mud on the ground. Die die went shower had lunch clean the kitchen went to bed But couldn't fall asleep until 8pm go down for dinner. Yayaya! China can now surf Facebook, my host sis added me and we had a chat. Really very glad to see her there. Teehee That's all for today. Goodnight, love.

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It doesnt makes sense.
Not at all.
Oh yea, give up really came to my mind.
And i was about to make the decision, by tonight perhaps.
Give up get nothing, hold on get onto a roller coaster.
Force myself, trouble myself.
I seriously can't take it.
I shall just let go perhaps.
Is it my fault?
Is it really my fault?
Am i wrong?
Am i really wrong?
How many times i need to repeat when i'm down just leave me aside FIRST?
I forced myself to 'serve' your call, just because of not making you feel bad,
but now seems getting everything into a mess?
Again is wrong to tell how i feel?
Offended to let you know that your words hurt?
I wanted to explain that your misunderstood my meaning to you
but you thought that i wanted to start a fight with you.
Lack of communication or understanding
Ahh whatever
Whenever i see your impatient tone in the text, i persuade myself hardly oh he's not, it's text no voice, dont judge.
So are you really not?
Honestly frankly seriously, i feel like i don't fit to be yours.
Again, the confidence built up and now it got whacked down.
Nice one :/
You deserve a better one, not me.
I'm just way too narrow minded, 'small gas', troublesome...
Whatever you named it, yes it is.
I'm not a good one. Prime factor, i don't save money wisely, in your opinion.
And a girl who dont save wisely, will affect your savings, so don't pick me :/

Oh YSL, what do you want now?
Don't you have a clear picture of it?
No idea at all. BLANK !
Okay let me tell you what.
I am really now at the junction of to go or not to go
In sense of studies and also relationship.
Suicide best? HA.HA.HA. Stupidity
You're blaming yourself again, or it is really your fault?
Is it wrong to tell your partner how you feel?
Is it wrong that you disturbed him emotionally when he's screwed with his work?
Wrong timing, is a no doubt btw

First time, first guy, driving me insomnia, at night even nap.
Just couldn't get my mind out of it whether it's up or down.
Send a love to your friends, not even once to me.
Great one, who cares it's to a boy or a girl.
Haha. I don't see my actual importance as being YOURS.
I AM JEALOUS !
So not proud of your girlf, until whenever she feels like tagging you in any post,
she has to think twice first.
Whenever she has problem with you need a listener, still she gotta think twice first.
It ended up keeping to herself each time, just to maintain your image.
LOL. You know all these? I don't think so.
What so great bout you? I couldn't answer this anymore now.
3months old is approaching, how is it gonna be?
I dare not imagine.
Oh 10days, how are we going to survive?
LOL Idc, i must will get it over.
Or it just gone half way like that?

Btw, i couldn't find the ad anymore bout our vacation. Sorry

Alright, final decision, let go and forget.
Couldn't afford to care so much anymore.
...Walk away

你不知道的事

我的男朋友

最接近我的人

请问，可否摆多少少耐心在我身上

你的另一半

她要崩溃了

不，是已经崩溃去
推动力，你去了哪？

渐渐迷失方向

思念，一天一天累积

嗯，我还撑得下去

我要快快把试考完好好拨时间陪你

好多来不及分享的大小事儿，几时得空听我说

捺在心里，我很闷闷不乐

有时候一个人，很累很不习惯

就好比如，好好的一双手

突然间没有了一只

几时，我们才不用分隔两地

男朋友，我是不是很烦人

怎么每天都让你担心似的

怎么总是觉得那么近那么远

男朋友，不要怪我好不好

我很不好受

我只在撒娇

我真的很不快乐

怎么你没有关心一下，今天口试怎么了

好多天，我没睡好了

都被考试缠绕着

反而醒来觉得，一夜的噩梦又过去了

我讨厌晚上睡不好

我会责怪自己怎么没把觉给睡好

我老早已经说过了，我会变得很暴躁

可是现在看来我没有发脾气，只是有点在自闭当中

对不起，我尽不了多少责任

我知道我每天都有一件事没有做

没有去提醒你点点滴滴

我没有忘记

我心有余而力不足

眼泪不听话去

依靠的肩膀，去了哪里？

It's our first Valentine's Day together ! :D

Back to November 2011, our memory lane begins

4th of November at Folie-folie Cafe&Grill is where our first meet

It was Athletic Club farewell.

Actually i didn't wanna go, but in the end, i attended

At first i wondered, waaaaa where did this fellow-YOU come from? Seems graduated long ago

And that night, we went to Jusco for a movie, In Time and then Gourmet Square for supper .

If i'm not wrong, you sat next to me.

The next day, i'm went to KL and i wall posted you

We spammed there throughout the day,

and you get my number that night during Faye Wong's concert.

There we started to text, almost everyday.

One morning when i was in Genting Highlands, 

was surprised to receive your text.

And ya, you dated me out.

You said, i come out then you come back, still ask me not to ffk you !

First moment, i was very struggling cuz don't know how to say NO! Hahaha 

So weird hanging out with a new friend who is still so strange to me.

And for the first time, i solo with a boy ! 

Look back at it now, perhaps a right choice huh? :P

Yes yes, our first date is on 11.11.11 !

We went to Mcd for ice-cream, you told me so much bout you i was like yes yes yes yes yes and don't know what to say ! LOL ! and watched TinTin, boringggggg cartoon. *NgekNgek*

Oh yea, i fetched you home. 

First time, i send a boy home!!! Got face lorrrr you harrr?

Our second and third date, on the 25th & 26th of Nov.

We watched 那些年，我们一起追的女孩 and Twilight.

Indeed a funny experience, watching together with Claudia and her mom !

You're like, Hello...Aunty... HAHAHAHAH !

And you, DIDN'T SHAVE YOUR MUSTACHE ! WOWWWWWWW !

We went and eat ice before the movie!

After movie, remember where we went? 

Ecopark !

You told me bout the fishes and the aunty who looked at us, remember? 

Then we went to Menglembu for dinner, we had wanton noodles and horhee ! 

First time, you treated a girl.

First time i know there's a shortcut to Menglembu then then then, kami pergi pasar malam.

Today, you placed your hand on my shoulder !  

That night, you phoned me telling me bout the movie and the story between you and your ex girlf.

You told me that she phoned you asking you whether you watched that movie not 

and chatted the past of you both. You were a lil upset and in half-way sleeping condition.

:)

......

The days after, you're busy preparing for your exam,

and i'm busy enjoying my holidays.

It was the evening of 1/12/2011 where we suddenly get into a 'fool'

A 'fool' where that was the third time you 'played' on me, 

yea i intended to challenge you back.

In and out, up and down, left and right. 

The challenge lasted until 4am of the next day

You serious or not one? Half-half la.

You want or not? I dont know. You?

Yes i want. Okay then we ON!

This is how we get together.

We first address each other TKK and YSL which i think, ahahaha...?

And you suddenly called me Dar, and you asked me can you address me so in future. Yes-yes !

8/12/2011, you came back and we met at Ipoh Parade to send you home.

Upon your arrival that day, i feel a lil shy and *bipbopbipbopbipbop* :$

But it became you send yourself home then i take over drive myself back home. Hahaha !

That day you told me, only see me for that lil while, not yet see clearly.

 9/12/2011 which is our first official date. 

We watched, Petaling Street Warriors and White Vengeance.

Waaaaaaa, first day hold hands got light bulb, so nice ahh.

At night, we went for snow beer with your friends 

and your friend's girlf was my ex classmate. The world is just so small

And and, there comes the historical moment where we arrived your doorstep, 

i said iLoveyou and you push my neck forward and kissed me !

I remember that so clearly, even until today !

I can even remember which shirt you were wearing that day. Teehee !

And third date, i didn't keep the movie tickets, jadi i lupa-ed apa terjadi.

Forth date, IT'S CHRISTMAS EVE ! 

You gave me the cute Snoopy and the Adidas tumbler.

I like it ! :D

We watched Flying Swords in LFS cinema,

and it was a mandarin version.

After that we just counted down in the car, on the way to Ampang. 

A lot of dates that we've spent together, i've eventually forgotten them all.

But i know, 

i like going to Ecopark with you, watching movie, eating, going night market, talking to you, 

do everything together with you. 

And someday, i went to your place, first time ever,

we kissed for like 2hours...?

And you were on your yellow Forever 21 tee !

On January 16, the end of your sem break and there begins our long distance relationship.

I never had this before, so it's really some sort of worried.

Confused whether i can handle it well or not, furthermore not confident enough.

Well, we're now two and half months old.

There were a lot of ups and downs as well as arguments we had underwent, 

our days filled with joys and little bit of tears and sourness

But anyhow, really thanks lot for being such an amazing boyf to me,

which i never had before.

Accepting me for who i am without complains, fulfilling my wishes, taking care of me like a doctor,

supports, endurance and toleration that had given to me, 

correcting my shortcomings especially my temper.

I'll never be a perfect one, but i promise, i will try my best to do my very best for you

Babe boy, do not complain about yourself over your shortcomings, 

i love you for who you are, NOW AND ALWAYS.

Once again,

TENG KAL KIN, you're irreplaceable,
 I LOVE YOU !

May your first Valentine Day with me and having a girlf,

be a fantastic one.

MZILEU 

First picture together, taken on 5/2/2012.

I don't know how am i doing things alone, you're not here for me

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